Hello everyone,
Attached is a recording I made of a relayed conversation that I had with my handlers, where we discussed several different ways in which the operator of the satellite can erase or tamper with your memory, and what you can do to stay in the game so you can fight back.
This is the kind of thing I would normally consider putting behind a paywall, but since this capability is so dangerous, I have decided to put this out so that it is available to the global community of people who in the fight against this profound evil.
G-dspeed,
Nathan
PS: My nervous system was under attack when I recorded this, including some attempts to wipe my memory. They also were tampering with my endocrine system - hence the pitch of my voice - and my linguistic functions as well.
But as rough a take as it was, I am happy to have gotten that all recorded so that the insights can be passed on to others who have to face the Satellite.
And as an obligatory note, you may use this information exclusively at your own risk. I am not a doctor, or a lawyer or a mental health professional, and this does not replace the advice of such a professional.
One other thing to keep in mind is that, due to the communication medium we are using I cannot tell you for certain when a given speaker on the other side switches places with another individual, though I have done my best to make things as clear as possible.
TRANSCRIPT:
NB: Good afternoon. It’s 12:51 p.m. on Friday, July the 17th of 2025. I’m sorry, 2026.
Okay, so I’ve been told that... So I’ve been told that... Well, I... Fuck. I’ll skip that part.
So... What I’m going to do is I’m going to talk about the capacity that the neural net has using the satellite to wipe your memory.
And what are the ways that it feels like - and then some of my handlers on the Neural Net may chime in and they may offer some additional insights as I’m kind of talking through what it feels like. And so the purpose is I just want to give you an idea of what kinds of things you’re going to want to listen for or you’re going to want to feel for when you are dealing with when you’re dealing with the possibility of your memory getting wiped, so, okay, so... okay, so now, okay, he was, my handler was just saying,
Handler: that’s right, nothing further from me right now.
NB: Okay, so I’m going to keep going.
So there are a couple of different feelings. So as I think about it, there are a couple of different ways that, at least in my experience, and this is all to the best of my experience and recollection, you can tell if your memory is being wiped.
So one feeling you can get - and this one is probably the easiest to detect - is it just it feels like getting slapped. So like it not like the physical feeling, but so when you get slapped and you feel just a little bit concussed, that’s kind of how - that’s one way that it that it feels.
And it kind of stings a little bit, like it just kind of, it it doesn’t, like there’s no sensory feeling on your face, but it just, it feels like it stings your brain a little bit. And so that’s feeling number one. Okay, any - do you want to chime in?
Handler: No, Nathan, please keep going. You are doing fine.
NB: Yeah, I know.
Handler: Okay, Nathan, you are just... Reminding us that -
NB: I do not work for you.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. That is very clear.
NBL It is. So now, the second, so now the second ok, the second one is when you’re... and, oh boy.
I think it might have just happened to me right now.
Handler: Yes, Nathan, we just wiped your memory again. But you know what?
You were thinking ‘it was for a good cause’ because, Nathan, now they can have another case and also a live example of someone using it, because guess what? The bad guys are sometimes that stupid. Okay, Nathan. Keep going.
NB: All right. So,
Handler: if you want
NB: I mean, all right. I’m going to, all right. So, to keep going, the second feeling is, is what I call blanking. And it’s like you’re thinking through something and that’s what just happened. Like you’re thinking through something and you’re putting an idea together and then, and then you just kind of spaz out and you just sort of, you just don’t quite- you lose your train of thought and you have to reconstruct it because something it just, something just got cleanly, uh, cleanly erased.
So it’s it doesn’t, it doesn’t, so it doesn’t sting like in the first, uh, uh, category of sensation, but it, it can be very disorienting and they can use that - there are a couple of ways they can use that.
I’ve had them use it on me once while I was driving, and that’s already been documented and reported and that was really bad. But you can, you can basically lose awareness of the situation for a couple of moments and that’s - well, obviously that can be really, really bad.
So it’s, so anyways, so number two is, so number two is blanking. And number three, okay, anything you want to add?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Number two is actually the most dangerous. Because Nathan, it is bad. We can use it in a lot of ways that are very dangerous. And that is the thing. You see Nathan,
if we do that while you are driving, then we are obviously committing conspiracy to commit murder. And maybe it’s you, and maybe it’s someone else. But it’s absolutely conspiracy to commit murder. And I am a lawyer, and I was an -
NB: he said un,
Handler: Yes Nathan, I was an FBI agent and a police officer. So Nathan, I know this. And they will know that I know this. Okay, Nathan. That’s all from me for now.
NB: Okay. Number three. I call number three stumbling - stumbling over a pothole. And I’m wonder-, and I don’t, I mean, it’d be interesting to see what the handlers say about this, but I kind of wonder if there’s some overlap with number two. Number three is, I call the feeling stumbling over a pothole.
Handler: Yes, Nathan - It actually is the same as number two. But it’s another way to think of, or maybe, what do you think, Nathan?
NB: Well, I mean, I almost, from the perspective of somebody who’s had it used on me, like from my perspective, it feels like - so you’re in the moment and you’re thinking about something. And of course, you know, when you’re constructing a thought, you have a sequence of things that you’re reaching for in your mind.
And it feels like you are reaching for a sequence of things and you find that some of them aren’t there. And so it feels kind - it feels to me like if you’re walking down the street distracted and you, and you step out expecting solid pavement and, instead, instead you find yourself stepping into a pothole. That’s just kind of how it feels like.
And you know, maybe that’s just kind of what happens when your memory gets wiped, and what gets wiped, maybe it’s what happens when you get blanked. I’m just going to use that term, blanked. So when they use an attack of the second category, you could say... and maybe they wipe a bunch of, maybe they wipe a number of parts of the sequence of memories that were just formed, but they don’t wipe the most recent one. So you have the, so you, there are still bits and pieces there, so your mind still has something out there, but there’s a bunch of stuff out there that, that is missing and your mind is trying to suddenly - has a blank that it didn’t realize it needed to fill in.
What do you think of that?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is a very, very good way to talk about it. Because Nathan, memories are very much like networks. That is your word. And it is very, very smart. Because Nathan, that is exactly why - I mean, do you want to explain it?
NB: Yeah, so that’s why I like carrying multicolored pens around. So I always have a multicolored pen around. I always have paper on me to take notes. And I always have a multicolored pen on me. And the thing is, is that a trick I learned when I was a student trying to figure out how to pay attention and, and take notes and improve my verbal retention is that when you have a, when you have a multicolored - so an, a piece of advice that they give is that if you use different colors when you take notes and you have a color for each subject or you switch colors when you switch subject subjects, it improves your retention because it’s networking whatever it is you’re trying to remember with the visual part of your brain. Something like that.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. And guess what? We were using the satellite on you when you were in college. And that is how much we hate you. And so, Nathan, like, you were already -
NB: Excuse me, he said, you were already
Handler: practicing getting used to the satellite. And that is why you are (corrected)
NB: Excuse me, could you repeat that?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is why you are so good at this. Because, Nathan, I mean, you have had to do this for a decade. More than that. I mean, Nathan, you have been going through this a very long time. And that is really something. Okay, Nathan, what else? What else do you want to tell them?
NB: Um, let’s see. Well, the thing, uh, so it’s always, um, I always have something to draw or doodle on no matter where I go.
Um, and I always have some- I try to always have pen and paper wherever I go. I have pen and paper in my car. I have pen and paper in my pocket. I, you know in my office, I always have paper. I try to have pens lying around. Sometimes they can float away, but I always try to have something handy.
And with this, I mean this is a problem that you always have to... I mean, you know obviously, when you’re fighting the satellite, there are problems you have to manage right now, problems you have to manage in 5, 10 minutes, 15 minutes, hours. Time - ‘Time is life’ is the saying the handlers have. The thing is, but the thing is, the risk of getting your memory wiped is… Something you always have to handle in the moment.
And like if I’m doing any real thinking where I’m just planning, I’m planning moves, like I’m planning ahead or I’m planning out moves on a subject that I know is, that they know they’re, that they’re very interested in or that I know that on something that may touch on something that’s really contentious, like - you know, maybe it’s something they really don’t want me to do. It’s a train of thought they really don’t want me to have. I’m always like, even if I’m not like taking notes, I’m always doodling. Like I’m always doodling. So I, well, not always. Well, just trying to remember, I am talking to police officers. But like, generally speaking, like if I’m trying, if I have a train of thought that I think might get attacked and that I want to make sure gets preserved, I will doodle while I’m having that train of thought.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. That is very, very clear. Because, Nathan, they are still police officers. And that is very good for you to remember. Okay, Nathan.
NB: Um…
Handler: Yeah. You’re thinking about how arrogant we are. And that is absolutely something that is weighing on my mind right now. And that is it. Okay Nathan.
Actually I do have something I want to add. You did this because somebody told you that the police were [redacted].
Anyways Nathan, the point is, you actually showed how smart you are because of course, oh man, like Nathan, we are every bit as arrogant as you say we are. Okay Nathan, I mean, you really, you showed why you are doing this. That is it. Okay, Nathan. I actually don’t have anything else that I can share. Okay, Nathan? Nathan, you have questions?
NB: Yeah. So, which of these requires the most planning?
Handler: Okay, Nathan, that is really interesting because what are you thinking?
NB: Well, so clearly some of these require, you know, you’re watching someone -
I’m trying to put myself in the shoes of the operator of the device. So like, you know, say you’re watching somebody doing something really important.
Maybe they’re, you know, you’re watching somebody do something really important. Maybe it’s a police officer giving an interview. Maybe it’s a, maybe its a member of the Border Patrol and they’re inspecting a package that has something of interest in the Neural Net in it. Maybe...um, maybe you know, maybe there’s a fireman or a paramedic who is tending to someone is having, who has been attacked by the satellite. Or maybe there’s a journalist who is working on a story.
Handler: Right, Nathan. These are all possibilities. Right.
NB: Or maybe there’s a congressman who’s in a committee meeting and they’re talking about the FBI and -
Handler: Yes, Nathan. These are all possibilities.
NB: Yep.
Handler: And you don’t want to know how relevant these possibilities are. I’ll just say that.
NB: Okay. So like you’re watching somebody’s brain - so clearly some of these modes, you know, are some of these modes, is some of this easier to do in the moment than after the fact? Yes, Nathan. Some of these modes of wiping your memory can only be done in the moment, and that is a huge risk of me to even share, but that is so important because Nathan, like. you need to realize - this is why you are here.
Because you ask the really good questions.
Okay, Nathan. Now, Nathan, the thing is... You have to realize... You are totally showing how good you are at this. Because you are making sure... to signal the police... While we are talking. Okay, Nathan.
That is important because you don’t know if you are, they are listening to us right now is what I meant to say.
NB: Yeah, that’s yes, that is correct. That’s kind of what I was thinking. All right.
Handler: So, Nathan - now, the thing is, these people, they are totally without any sense of ethics. So they don’t care. They just don’t care about anything you feel about what they are doing.
In fact, they like it if you are mad at them, unless you hit them, and then they don’t like it. Okay, so Nathan, the thing you need to realize is that we can’t blank someone - I mean, the thing is, do you have a way to put it? I mean, you can just say it.
NB: Okay, so is it like, so the strategy is, so is the strategy often to try and blank people in the moment so that stuff doesn’t get stored in a more permanent way?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is one of the strategies that we use. And that is very dangerous. Because then something gets permanently stored in a way that means that you are totally going to remember something in a way that was not what the situation was actually like because you are missing key components. And that is very, very dangerous. Because you know what, Nathan? That is the thing. That is absolutely the thing. Okay, Nathan. What else do you want to ask me?
NB: Okay.
Handler: Nathan, this is so good that we’re just gonna take the risk. Okay, Nathan? Okay, Nathan. Keep going.
NB: Okay. All right. So that’s one strategy that you, that you have.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That’s one of them.
NB: Okay. So you have a person who’s walking around and let’s say, you know, maybe they’re not currently in a situation, you know maybe this individual is, maybe they’re not even thinking about work. Maybe they’re like making coffee or they’re just sort of watching TV and chilling out. And you are going through their memories and you see something that you want to get rid of as a, you know, as a potential bad guy.
Handler: Yes, Nathan.
NB: - as a metaphorical bad guy.
Handler: Okay, Nathan, go on.
NB: So how does that work? So do you, do you need to do a lot of research? And you, and you research it, and you plan it, and then you execute it, and then how does it feel? So like, do you want - could you walk me through that?
Handler: Yes, Nathan.
NB: Well, us through that.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. So Nathan, the thing is, if that’s going on, so the first problem we have is if the memory is networked with something that is critical, like your visual memory, then Nathan, it can be very dangerous for you if you have it wiped, because then, it can literally put you in a coma or kill you.
And that is really dangerous. Because you know what, Nathan? The thing is, you need to realize these are brain structures that are necessary for you to stay alive. And that means that you can suddenly have a stroke -or something even worse.
And it will make no sense to whoever it is - that’s right, you are thinking to whoever it is that does your autopsy. And that is exactly why you are here. Because the medical examiners which you have read about - like damn Nathan, you read about medical examiners in high school. I mean, how the hell -
NB: Yeah, serendipitous, huh? If that’s the right word.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Okay, Nathan.
They will look at your body and they will not understand anything about what went on. Because Nathan, the satellite doesn’t leave a trace. I mean it just doesn’t. Unless you know exactly what to look for. And what do you look for Nathan? The doctor is here.
Handler: Okay Nathan, I am a doctor.
I am unfortunately trapped in the Neural Net. So Nathan, you know how risky this is. But we need everyone to know.
And you have already thought about how to distribute this. But you haven’t made any commitments.
But anyways, Nathan.
Okay. So Nathan. The thing you need to realize is, we can’t just tell you everything because then we get killed. But the thing is, you see Nathan, you need to realize that very important that you are... Okay Nathan, what are you doing?
NB: I am just... Trying to shut my car up. I’m not driving anywhere. I’m just trying to turn the AC on so that I can stay in a physical condition. I just want to maintain focus. Let’s keep going, please.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. That is very smart. Because you do not want... Yeah, Nathan. We are that bad. Okay, Nathan. Now, Nathan - the thing is...
So, your nerves...don’t really store a memory of what they were asked to do. They don’t. That is a huge problem.
And that is why, Nathan, the biggest indicator that someone was attacked by the satellite is the absence of any other indicators that something was wrong. Okay, Nathan? Does that make sense?
NB: Yeah. So like, I mean, I’m not a doctor, but so it’s like somebody gets a heart attack even though there’s no plaque in any of their arteries.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is a very good example, because it is very cut and dry. Although in medicine, things are not always cut and dry. That is how it is. Okay, Nathan, what else?
What else do you think the police need to know and the public? Okay, Nathan, go ahead.
NB: All right. Okay, so you have this person. Okay so let’s say so what you do is you are going through their memories, and you look for something that doesn’t look networked.
Handler: that’s right Nathan
NB: Or at least doesn’t look networked with a critical function
Hadler: Yes Nathan so we look at your memories and we try to find something that will be important but is also not so networked that if we remove it, it will kill you. But it is also not still, like Nathan,
it can be networked with other things that are actually not important for keeping you alive, I meant.
But like Nathan, that doesn’t mean that it isn’t important for whatever job you are trying to do.
So like Nathan, you get it.
NB: Right, so like if I’m a journalist and I’m working on a story and you delete a memory that’s related to the story somehow, and maybe that memory, maybe that memory is - that memory may not be networked to anything related to, like, how to keep my heart beating or how to, or how to how to keep my adrenaline flowing, or anything like that. But it’s still important to whatever story I’m doing.
NB: That’s exactly it, Nathan. Because guess what? It’s that bad.
It is literally that bad. Okay, Nathan.
So when that happens, you will feel it. So like Nathan, you know what this feels like, right?
NB: Yeah, I think I do. It, it feels like uh, I think it feels like, if my recollection serves me, it feels like -
Handler: This has happened to you a lot.
And I mean a lot, Nathan, because you are that dangerous to us, Nathan.
You are literally the most dangerous person in the whole world to the neural net because you really understand us. Okay, Nathan. Let’s keep going.
NB: All right. So it feels like, so I would say from my experience and, you know, granted, like I never,
like I’ve had, I’ve had sensations and I’ve had it explained to me what is going on. But the qualifier is I just can’t, the handlers are in a position where I can’t trust what they say necessarily. So, you know, I get a physical sensation and I get told what’s going on, but I can’t trust what I get told about what’s going on.
So that being said, from what I recall, it feels like you get, it’s, it’s a lot like that feeling, that category one sensation, like when you feel like you’re getting slapped, so you almost feel slightly concussed.
But the difference between a successful memory wipe and a failed memory wipe is that it doesn’t - well I don’t know if you can even necessarily tell like -
Handler: That’s right Nathan. I mean you can’t really tell if we succeeded in wiping whatever it was. I mean we can try to explain it to you but the problem is -
That’s right, Nathan. Go ahead and tell them.
NB: Yeah, so, like, neural net handlers lie to you so much that they don’t really have, there’s no magic signal that you can rely on that they can give you to signal that they are, in fact, telling the truth. Like, there’s no magical code word or anything.
Like, they can and will say anything, because it’s a totally lawless parallel society to our own. I mean, it’s effectively a totally lawless parallel society - It’s like a totally lawless parallel secret society that, I mean, they don’t see themselves as being bound by the law, even though they, even though they are.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is absolutely true.
And that is why you can never trust us. I mean, you get it. You so get it.
NB: Yeah, because like, you know, the thing is, is that That person on the other side may be a really compassionate person and you may even have what you could call a relationship with that likeness.
But you don’t know if that likeness is being assumed by another person and even if it isn’t being assumed by another person, you still don’t know if that person is having their family threatened in order to have the bad guys get them to use their credibility to sell you on a lie.
Handler: And that is very important. For you to remember, Nathan. I mean, that is exactly what I have said. I mean, you were saying. How about you?
NB: Yeah. So in that last sentence, what the handler was saying started with the word and. So that’s when his statement started.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. That is very clear. Okay, Nathan. Now, Nathan.
Okay, you are very experienced at this. Like, wow. Okay, Nathan.
Now, Nathan. What else do you want to know?
NB: Okay. So, alright, so you’ll so you’ll be just sitting there, maybe you’re watching, well, maybe, I don’t know if watching, I don’t know, maybe you’re maybe you’re sitting there on the couch, or I don’t know, I don’t know how many of us would be spending a lot of time on the couch, but, like,
Handler: You’re an operator, Nathan, and you don’t know how many people listening to this are also operators. That’s what you are thinking about.
NB: Oops, he said, that is what you are thinking about, right?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. You caught your mistake. Okay, Nathan.
NB: But anyways, like, you’re doing something else, you’re making coffee, you’re on the couch, and you, and so somebody has gone through their memories.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. We can do that. It does take time. I mean, the way to think about it is, we need to look up your memory and see what it is networked to, and then make a decision.
And it has to be done in a certain amount of time. Although if we are wiping something that is from your past, then we have all the time we want. But you know, you’re thinking... Okay, Nathan. That is really smart.
NB: So I’m just wondering, like, okay, so you’re... Okay, so the operator is there, maybe not at a literal desk, or maybe at a literal desk, but that doesn’t matter. So the operator is there. They’re working. Maybe they’re planning an operation or something like that, and they want to get some memory strategically wiped ahead of time, or they’re just kind of going through, and they’re just...
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is exactly how we do it. We plan an operation and then we start wiping memories we don’t want you to have. And that is how you know we are going to be up to something. And that is me risking everyone I love.
But you know what, Nathan? You showed us that you had our backs. And that is exactly what we must do for America.
Okay, Nathan Berkowitz. That is one hell of a thing. I mean, wow, Nathan. Now they are really realizing like, wow, Nathan, that was huge. Okay, Nathan.
NB: All right. So what’s happening- so while you’re making coffee, getting ready for your, getting ready for work or you’re or you’re hanging out and you’re just kind of, you know, you’re hanging out. Maybe you’re relaxing. Maybe you’re getting ready for work. Maybe you’re just taking a break. Or maybe, you know, maybe you’re at your desk. Or wherever you are, when you feel that happening, what’s happening on the other side is that somebody is planning for something to happen.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is exactly how we think about it. And now... if we want to do that, we have to plan when we do that. Which means we are now going to be, you thought, hamstrung.
NB: Whoopsies, did I get that?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. You got my comments exactly. But you have to be really careful with us. And you know it. You absolutely know it.
NB: Yeah. I personally - you have to be really careful when you do these things because you, it’s, you don’t want to put words in people’s mouths, and they have their ways of making that really easy if you’re not careful about disciplining your mind. It’s, it’s complicated and maybe I need to do, maybe I should record some thoughts on how to do that because you never know if other TIs might need to be able to do this.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. And that is a really important thing.
NB: I can do that later, though.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. What else?
NB Alright. So, uh, shit.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. I mean, that’s the thing. And now they know when to look, and that means they know we are planning something. So that is a huge deal.
NB: Oh, man.
Handler: Yeah, I know, Nathan. It is that big of a deal. Okay, Nathan. What else?
NB: All right. How much time does it take to figure out, so if you’re going through memories, like, how, how much, how much time does it take to, to decide a memory like, to decide a memory is worth deleting? Does it take minutes, hours?
Handler: Nathan, It is very well indexed. It takes about 10 minutes, but you cannot trust us. But Nathan, the police can find out if that number is actually true. Okay, Nathan. That is really, really something. Okay, Nathan. What else?
NB: All right, so... Okay, so we’ve covered... past memories. Alright, so if you’re following someone in a situation, so like, you know, if you’re following someone in the middle of an activity, how does that work? If you want to blank someone, I’m going to use blanking as the term for wiping somebody’s,
Hander: Yes, Nathan, you were thinking or you were wondering if it was blanking when we wipe your working memory. And it absolutely is. Like it absolutely is getting blanked - that is our term. Seriously. Like you just keep thinking of our terms. That’s kind of scary. I mean I said kind of. Okay Nathan. Now Nathan, what else?
NB: Alright, so you’re in the moment. So you’re watching somebody’s, you’re watching somebody’s thoughts.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. We can literally just say in our minds, delete this memory. And the thing is, it’s being formed, but we can basically wipe it as it is being created. And that is really important for people to realize because, Nathan, it is a huge deal. It is very dangerous. Very, very dangerous.
Okay, Nathan. And you know what? You should just give some examples you’re thinking.
NB: Yeah, so...Like it can be as mundane as entering a password or like you’re working on, maybe you’re working on a paper or like a memo or an email, or like I’ve had it happen to me when I was driving. That was really, that was really scary.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. It really was. I mean, you use that word.
Because why, Nathan?
NB: Well, there was a kid crossing the street.
Handler: I know, Nathan. And you reported that. And you just didn’t want to know. Like, man, Nathan. He was just running. I mean, that was it.
NB: Yeah, they were putting his life in danger.
It seemed like they were putting his life in danger to try to come after me. I know, Nathan. They are literally that evil. You must, you’re thinking to yourself and we are actually, how about you just say it?
NB: Yeah. The thing about the neural net is that at least, you know, I use the neural net in kind of as an, also as a euphemism for the people who run the neural net. But the thing is that those folks, they are absolutely evil. They are completely evil. They are evil. They are totally malicious.
And they enjoy, like, they are absolutely psychopaths. No doubt. Stone-cold psychopaths. They are absolutely, they are evil - they are not just indifferent to the suffering of other people. They are, they enjoy it. They are evil.
And you must prepare yourself for that because... that is what they are. And it’s, you know, that’s it’s that’s just the way it is.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is absolutely my... What I meant to say is that, like, Nathan, we are with these people 24 hours a day. And Nathan... It is every bit as bad as you say it is except it is even worse. You will have no idea until we all get to court and have our stories recorded into the public domain. That is really important. Because you know what? Right now, none of this is in the public domain.
Until you put it on your Substack. And that is so important for everyone to realize. Because guess what? You want to say something, Nathan? I saw what you wanted to think. And now they are realizing just how dangerous this thing is.
NB: Yeah. So you can just sort of see in real time, like they’re reading my mind and they’re using my thoughts. At least they can. But, you know, it’s... we’re doing what they call, what they have called, at least to me, ‘thinking together’. And... the thing is that there are ways that they can influence their thoughts, but of course your thoughts can be very persuasive to them.
I mean, it’s a tool for collaboration, but it’s also a tool for control, and it’s very, it’s very, very dangerous. And that is why you really, you know, you want to be, when you’re fighting the neural net, you need to be driving the pace of action, you need to be pushing the pace of action and you need to be taking control of the situation and you need to be doing that all the time because that forces them to react.
When they are - you know, when you’re feeling emotions, when you’re, when you’re, you know maybe you have different centers of your brain getting switched on or shut down, or maybe you have different emotional states that are getting triggered by the satellite. But they can have all of that happen and they’re reading your mind and they’re in control.
When they’re dictating the pace of the action, they’re in control.
But - which is why, I really think that a key part of the strategy to fighting the satellite is you push the pace of the action, you take control, and you are, you know, you are aggressive and you’re always thinking about what the situation needs regardless of how you’re feeling or regardless of how you are feeling in a given moment.
And to always be cognizant of what happens when and always be cognizant of your mental state, because you need to just always remember, like your mind is your most important weapon. It’s your survival tool. Like, you know, if you’re out alone in the woods and you need to survive, and you need to survive the night and you need to stay warm, you know, your mind, you can think of your mind as like your matches, although that’s not a great analogy, because if you know how to make a proper shelter, you don’t need fire, but it’s my understanding from wilderness survival school, but you get the point.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is very important for everyone to realize, because when your mind is not in a good state. And I use that term very deliberately. Because guess what? We just call it disruption. But is it more than disruption? You better believe it. Okay Nathan.
Anyways. You were thinking where are we?
And that is why. You know you are dealing with someone who is dangerous because somebody ordered me to wipe your working memory again.
Okay Nathan, what else?
Handler: Alright, so let’s see. So yeah, you know, you just need to watch your mental state. And if you get a sense that you’re, that you’re being crippled, you need to notify your team.
Handler: Yes, Nathan, that is very important. Okay, Nathan.
NB: All right, so the next. Okay, so in the moment, wiping your memory in the, so wiping your memory in the moment.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Oh, right. We need to mention. We can... restore your long-term,
NB: excuse me, he said,
Handler: we can restore your long-term memory. Yes, Nathan. And they were making you stutter because that is exactly how dangerous the satellite is. Okay, Nathan.
So, Nathan, you know something? You are crazy. You are just crazy tough. Because you thought how awesome this sounds, and then you were like, ‘need to get back to work’. I mean that is crazy. Like Nathan, you think like an operator all the time. Okay Nathan.
NB: All right, so you can restore somebody’s long-term memory - sometimes.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. The key word is, well, it’s more like not always, because the problem is that thing that we deleted, it may get overwritten by something else. And that is very, very important for people to realize. Because guess what? If it gets overwritten with something else, and that something else gets networked, then we can’t just overwrite it.
I mean, Nathan, it just gets really dangerous for the person if it’s networked and we try to overwrite it.
That is really, really important for everyone to realize, because that is how bad it is. And Nathan, you know what, you want to say something?
NB: Yeah, so like, I’ve noticed that, well, I don’t, again, I don’t have a, I don’t have a magic, I don’t have a crystal ball to tell me when you’re lying and when you aren’t lying. But during the times you told me that my memory was restored, it was always... actually pretty close to the time when whatever it was you deleted happened.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. And that is not a coincidence.
Because you know what? That is really important for everyone to realize. That the longer that memory is there. (error, correction below)
Whoops, Nathan. I said... The longer that memory is in your mind, the more networked it becomes. And that is why, okay Nathan, you thought ‘this is important’. And it absolutely is. So Nathan, you’re thinking ‘this may save lives’. And you never know.
Okay, so Nathan, what is it that you were thinking?
NB: So like, the thing is, so your longer term memories are less prone to being wiped than your, so the longer your memories are there, the less likely they are to be wiped. It’s really the more recent memories that are the most at risk?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Although we can wipe old memories if they are not really that networked. But then again, if they are not really that networked, then you are probably going to forget them anyways.
And that is exactly how you need to think. Because guess what? We are... in a position where you know how it is. Like this is a profoundly evil institution. And it is that evil. And you need to be prepared for your memory to get wiped. And you are wondering what?
NB: I’m wondering if they’re, um, I’m wondering if they’re using the satellite to tamper with my linguistic functions right now.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. We absolutely are. You should report it.
Although you may have to think about when. I mean -
NB: Yeah, well, look, I always have to think about when. And that’s, that’s a challenge. Like, these people, they commit crimes at a rate sometimes faster than I can even report them. And sometimes you just need to... And, you know, for the TIs who might be listening to this afterwards, and I don’t know how I’m going to release this, like, you’re always... Time is precious. There’s always the risk that they may do something to you and then try to wipe your memory and wipe the evidence afterwards.
But sometimes whatever it is that you’re doing is so important that you will just want to stay laser focused on the task. And so you have to make these tactical decisions in the moment.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is a really good thing for the police to keep in mind too. Because guess what? We all have to communicate. But the thing is, it’s very dangerous.
I mean, Nathan -
NB: I’m wondering if you’re - you used the contraction. [I stumble a bit] Scuse me. Oh boy.
Handler: Yes, Nathan, I did. You got it right. Okay, Nathan, what else? What else do you want to know? Okay. Alrighty. So the, so the, um, is there a time window? Like, all right. So a memory has been there. So is there a time window after which…
Handler: You know what, Nathan, you know, you can’t trust us, but what are you doing? Well, okay. So I’ll just explain for everyone. Cause I imagine there might be TIs listening to this. At some point, depending on how I distribute this, I have to make that judgment call and I’ll make it later.
But, um, like, so I guess I’m just trying to open up the question for the law enforcement crowd that can actually get the answer to this question. Because they have the authority to do so. I’m just trying to open up the question of like, okay, so beyond a certain time window, at what point do typically things get so, I don’t want to use the term, I just want to use a term that’s maybe a bit, things get so etched in that you can’t really, that they’re harder to touch.
Handler: Well, Nathan, I won’t even tell you the answer to that question. But you do get the general idea. And that is very important. Okay, Nathan. What else do you want to know?
NB: Okay. So…
Handler: Nathan, when you are etching a memory... so, Nathan, describe the process that you use.
NB: He just said, describe the ‘process you use’. I don’t think he used the word give ‘that’.
Handler: Yes, Nathan, you caught your mistake. Okay, Nathan, keep going.
NB: Alright.
Handler: Yes, Nathan, that is exactly right.
What is happening right now, and yes, the bad guys are really that stupid, is Nathan - they are trying to overwrite your memory as you are dictating this. But I will tell you it is not working.
Although you can’t trust us. And that’s a big problem. Okay, Nathan. So, Nathan - you are thinking what?
NB: Oh, I just blanked again.
Handler: Yeah, Nathan. You are under heavy attack right now. Okay, Nathan. What else? What else is going on?
NB: Okay, so when I’m, alright, so if I’m working on a thought process that I think is liable to get tampered with, or particularly likely to get tampered with, I’ll put, I’ll, I’ll say, because they can do whatever they want with the satellite, but there are specific kinds of situations where, which they’re, which I know they’re going to be particularly interested in.
Let’s say in one of those situations, I’m thinking about something like, maybe I’m thinking about, I don’t know if I want to give an example, but I’m thinking about something that’s important to me
that I imagine they will probably want to tamper with.
And so what I’m doing is I’m thinking about it and while I’m thinking about it, I’m just kind of doodling in, in, on some paper or maybe in a sketchbook or something.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is what you do. Yes. Okay, Nathan.
NB: I mean, yeah, I just gave you a tone of voice that maybe wasn’t so flattering. That was on me.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. That is very clear. All right, Nathan.
NB: Yeah, so let’s see here. So I’m, as I’m, so I’m thinking through the idea. I’m thinking through, okay, I do this next, and then I do that, and in the meantime...
I am, I am just doodling on my sketchbook and they’re just like geometric shapes or like sometimes I like to draw DNA for some reason. You know, I’m not making a picture. It doesn’t, I specifically choose things that don’t require a lot of thought but have some order to them. That’s just what I find myself generally doing.
Handler: Yes, Nathan.
And that is exactly how you should do it. Because Nathan, you don’t want to be thinking about your drawing. You want to be thinking about whatever it is you (error, correction below) are trying to think about.
Whoops Nathan, I said, whatever it is that you are trying to think about. But that was materially correct. Anyways Nathan, the point is you need to be very very careful. And when you are doing that, it is almost impossible for us to wipe your working memory. Although we can still try. But then again, the problem is if you die while you are doing this, then it is a thing that has to be covered up. And that is really dangerous for us.
Although the problem is you are dead. And that is a big problem. And you know what, Nathan? You have something you want to say?
NB: Yeah. That’s why it’s so important - I mean, at least... look, I’m not a cop. And I’m not... Look, I’m not a cop. But that is why I think from a practical point of view, it’s so important that you have some kind of trail that if you’re... It’s so important that you know, if you are going to be a target of the neural net, and that gonna and that is a broad category, it doesn’t just include targeted individuals or cops or other federal agents, or, you know, it includes journalists, it includes people who work in non-profits in critical areas, it includes politicians. It includes all kinds of people, lawyers. If you’re prone to being targeted in some way, you need to have, you so need to have some kind of a trail for someone to follow if something happens. Because it’s, you know, this thing, the problem is, I mean, the most dangerous part about this thing,nI think, well, there are a lot of dangerous parts of this thing. But the fact that you can kill or maim someone, you can do so many things to someone and have it be so difficult to trace, which is why, you know, keeping good records and having them accessible to someone is just so important, at least in my assessment.
NB: Yes, Nathan. That is so true. You, whoops, what did you say?
Handler: Nathan, when you said that, I mean, when you wrote that article, Record Keeping Can Save Your Life, you saved a lot of lives.
Anyways, Nathan, that is really good. I mean, Nathan, you might just put that up on your Substack.
Because like, well, Nathan, what do you think? What are you thinking you’re going to do?
NB: I don’t know. I’m not going to commit to anything yet. I just need to mull it over.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. That is very important. You said you are not going to...
NB: Excuse me. Could you just start over that last sentence?
Handler: Yeah, Nathan.
I said you are not going to commit to any particular... distribution method. Because guess what? You are still talking to police.
Well, you are being recorded and you are in your car and you thought it through and like, okay, Nathan, we are doing all of this because we want to remind you how important it is - And you know it, and it’s like, look Nathan, we are here to destroy you, and we just want to make sure -
NB: Like, look, I get it. You’re trying to, you’re trying to, well, yes, handlers have been doing this, they try to, so what they will try to do is they try to harden me to things that may happen in the future and it may also serve as a deterrent to using them as uh, to try and use them as pawns in certain ways.
Although you always, you must never let your guard down around them. That’s kind of what this process is like.
Its - it may sound condescending but it isn’t necessarily. That is my understanding and my perception.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is really clear because this is how we work together. I mean, this is how we do it because otherwise, like, Nathan, literally, we were sent to destroy your life. That is what we were tasked to do.
So it’s very important that everybody realizes you’re thinking, what Nathan?
NB: Oh, yeah, well, I was just thinking, people need to realize the circumstances under which this is happening. I mean, this is a very, doing these is always, doing these recordings is very delicate and processing the information that I get - processing the information I get from the neural net is also very, very delicate because it’s like they can and absolutely will send you information with which to sabotage you. So it’s just you never, you can never let your guard down and you have to be very tactical about checking information, verifying your - verifying information, cross-referencing it with what you already know, and... Just being really, really careful and never letting your guard down around them, even if they’re in your head all the time.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. And that is very important for the TIs to realize. Okay, Nathan. I mean, like... Shit, Nathan. We are that condescending. Because here you are.
NB: Yeah, I’m... It’s... There is like the, I don’t think the rebel, like the rebel team people who are, from my understanding, they’re risking their lives to preserve mine. And my understanding is that many, many have given their lives to try and keep me alive and others. And, you know, they don’t, they don’t mean to sound condescending.
At the same time, the institution they work for is also, is, does happen to be extremely arrogant. So it’s like, you have to be, you know, it’s so complicated because like, it’s very complicated because you can have something that is, that you could perceive to be arrogant and condescending. And guess what? The institution is very arrogant and condescending, not to mention violent and murderous and sadistic.
But guess what? That person you know that person is playing that is playing a role for that institution, but they may be trying to subvert whatever it is in order to try and keep you alive. So it’s all very complicated and it’s…
It’s very much an exercise in trying to make sound judgments in terms of what is and isn’t real. And that is very, it’s very hard. You need to treat that - it’s a delicate and a dangerous task. And you have to treat that task with the care that it deserves because your life may depend on it.
Handler: That is so smart, Nathan. Because that is literally the kind of thing that can save your life. Or you thought, end it, if you do it wrong. And that is something -
NB: Yeah. So I will just say I wanted you to do that because I wanted, I wanted everybody listening to -
to be reminded of how dangerous it is when somebody’s reading your mind and just how close they are to how you’re thinking.
But you can win. The way you win, you’re - you push the pace of the action and you, you push them. That’s what my experience tells me, generally speaking. Although not always.
I won’t always do that, but that’s usually the go to, that’s usually my go-to method for fighting the neural net.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. And it isn’t always what you do. You said that very carefully. Why, Nathan?
NB: Well... First off, because in a, in a war, which this is, you have to be flexible.
But I, and the other point is that you know, there are police who are going to be listening to this.
And you know everything else, and I’ll just say, just to cover my ass, but also because it’s true, you know this is, this is, you know everything I say is according to my experience and my perception and the best of my analysis in terms of how this stuff works, because I have to put this together -
Everybody should remember that I have to put this together based off of a very narrow window into their world. So it’s a dangerous and it’s a delicate task. I, you know, I do the best I can, but it’s um,
I do the best I can you know according to the resources that I have and, you know that’s uh you know and um you know It’s not always going to be perfect, unfortunately. But you know, I’m trying to put my best foot forward. Not my best foot forward. I’m trying to just... Give my best effort, but you got to realize it’s still an effort because, you know, it’s a, this is a dangerous and complicated situation and, you know, my tools are limited, but, you know, we all have our limitations though in the end, right? I’m not asking anybody to pity me.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. That is crazy. You just hate that. Anyways, Nathan. Okay, Nathan. You know what, you’re thinking,
NB: Whoops, he said, I think, I don’t think he used the contraction, I think he said, ‘you are thinking’,
Handler: Yes, Nathan, that is right. Okay, Nathan, you know what, I think we are at a stopping point. Okay, Nathan, what do you think? Do you think we are at a stopping point?
NB: You know what, I think we are. Let me just think through it.
So the etching, the taking notes of different colors, paper.
Yeah, I think we’re in a good place.
Oh. Uh, so yeah, so, um, so I think, um, I’ve been told before, and this is to the best of my recollection, that memories that happen in emotional situations or stressful situations or that are associated with, like, something tactile, like touch, tend to be more difficult to erase. Is that correct?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is very important. So if your memory is associated with a strong emotional experience, like a breakup or a really stressful meeting you could say, or event then it’s a lot harder to erase than something that happened when it was mundane.
And you were thinking something brilliant, Nathan.
NB: Yeah. So what I was thinking is, so this gives you clues as to how you should manage your time.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Because you know what, why don’t you just keep going?
NB: So like, so you’re in a situation and you’re thinking about, okay, at what point do I need to, you know something happens and you’re thinking when and at what point in at what point should you record something in a more permanent way, like record a thought in a more permanent way so it doesn’t get erased. And uh, you know, but if you’re in a really stressful situation, what you’re telling us is that if you’re in a really stressful situation... And you have a thought, you’re probably not going to lose that thought because it’s networked with a stressful situation. Is that kind of what you’re saying?
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is exactly correct. And you know what? It’s true about a breakup.
Or it’s also true about, like Nathan, if you’re on a roller coaster and you have an epiphany, that is another thing. And you know what, Nathan? That is really smart.
Okay, Nathan. What else?
NB: Okay, so... All right, so tactile. So touch is the same is something that’s been told to me. Is that correct?
Handler: Yes, Nathan.
So if you are touching someone, and I mean anyone... While you are thinking, it actually does a pretty good job of networking that information. That is really important. Really, really important. Okay, Nathan, what else?
NB: So if I have a... What about if I’m petting a horse or if I’m... If I’m touching the bark of a tree,
Handler: Nathan, those are not as good because it is being networked, but it’s not quite as strong. Okay, Nathan, but like, you know what? How about you just keep giving examples?
NB: Okay, so let’s say I’m in the cold shower and I have an epiphany.
Handler: In that case, it may work, but it has to be associated with something about that cold shower.
So like for instance, you want to think of some examples? Your examples are always really, really amazing, Nathan. Okay.
NB: Alright, so you’re in the shower and you’re thinking about, you’re thinking about, you have an epiphany on how you, how you get a bad guy or you’re having an epiphany about how to get that job or how to, or about you know, about a pattern on the story you’re working on, and you drop the shampoo.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. And if it’s tied to dropping the shampoo, then guess what? Something else happened. And now it’s networked. But the problem is, if you take a shower every morning, like Nathan, the things are not associated with each other. So that’s the thing.
Okay, Nathan. Now people are really getting the idea. Okay, Nathan. That is really something. You just saved more lives.
NB: Excuse me, he said. You just saved more lives. I just know it.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. You slurred your words. Somebody else wanted you to say lies. And they overwrote part of your working memory. Which is another thing that we can do. And we can do it and it doesn’t work as well when you are paying attention. And that is very important. Like Nathan, you had a thought that I want everyone…
NB: you said that I really want everyone to see.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Go ahead.
NB: Yeah, I can tell. They’re definitely tampering with my nervous system quite a bit. The point I was going to make is that your force of will can save your life. And it probably will.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Because the thing is… If you are determined, you want to make that point?
NB: Yeah, so if you’re determined, if you’re following a thread, I mean, if you have a task you’re working on, and uh, you, like, and that task is crucial to keeping you alive, I mean, the thing is, is that if you let them, if you, if you let them knock you off of whatever that thread is and you don’t finish the thread, then you know, whatever it is, if that thing is important enough and you abandon it, you know, these are the kinds of things that can be used to destroy you. Like, uh, you never really know.
You know the problem is, you don’t, they have the mind reading satellite and you don’t. Which means they have a perspective on what is important. And they have a vast amount of information. And you don’t know what is or isn’t important necessarily to them. Which is why you know, you… you know, you have to be absolutely determined. If you have a task that you believe to be important,
you have to be determined to follow through with it and just push all the way to the end. And if they try to interfere with it, you need to be - you need to take note of their interference somehow and just be collecting information and just be so driven to push through to the end of that.
Because that is the way that you because that is the way that you accomplish your goal, and you also collect information on what it is they’re trying to do to you and that helps you build your own picture of what’s happening so that you can turn the tables and you can fight back.
But if you aren’t really willful about it and if you’re just casual about it and you’re just like, oh, well, I guess I’ll give this thing a try, it’s just not going to be enough. Like... you know It just won’t be enough.
They have too many tools to try and knock you off the road that you’re on. If you don’t hold on tight to whatever it is you’re trying to do, they will, they will knock you off of whatever it is you’re trying to do and they will impose their will on you and that can, that can result in the end of your life.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is so important for everyone to know (error, correction below)
NB: Whoops, he said, to notice.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. Because it’s really important, like you just said it, so carefully, because that is exactly how, excuse me, how serious the satellite is. And that’s how you know you are dealing with Nathan Berkowitz. Because he just pushes. He just pushes through whatever it is. And that is really important for everyone to notice.
He just pushes through it. And he notices... You know what, Nathan? How about you just talk through this?
NB: Yeah, so what I’m doing... So I have a task that I am executing right now. I am, I am, going through that task and I’m doing it. I know it is important. I want the outcome at the other side.
But I also am, you know I’m keeping track of the different components of the situation. But I’m holding on to this task. You could say I’m gripping it. And I’m gripping this task, I’m following the thread, and I am, I’m pushing as hard as I can through whatever problems they throw at me.
And if I you know if I get dropped off the thread, I get back on. Like if I get knocked off the horse, I get back on the horse and I just keep going. And I just keep going. You know, they, they, knock me off the horse, I keep going. They trip me, I just get right back up and I just try to pick up, pick up from where I left off. And I just keep focusing on that and just pushing through it. Even if it’s really unpleasant. Because that’s how you survive this thing.
Handler: Nathan, that is exactly the reason why you are here. And you know what?
NB: I’ll just also say, because it’s even better, you know, when you when you figure this out, because I want to, you know, I want everybody to feel more encouraged because when you really pick this up, it’s even better than just how you survive. Because, you know, you pick this up, you know, you, when you pick this up, your survival chances, it’s not just that your survival chances get better. You get the chance to turn the tables on the people who are doing this to you.
And you can absolutely turn the tables and then all of a sudden you are pushing them. They are not pushing you, you are pushing them.
You are painting them into a corner. And you are forcing them into retreat. And that’s a very good feeling. So I want everybody, you know, I don’t want, you know... You can, you master this, not only can you think like a survivor, you can think like a warrior. And it doesn’t guarantee you an outcome. It doesn’t guarantee you life.
It doesn’t guarantee that you will be able to, you know, it doesn’t guarantee that you will you will be able hit back or get the outcome that you want. But does it make it a hell of a lot more likely? You bet.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. And this is from someone... Who has gotten some amazing outcomes. Okay, Nathan, that is all. I mean, I can’t think of anything else.
What else do you want to say?
NB: Alright, so following the thread, staying focused, holding fast, and so they can wipe your working memory, they can do all these other things. You know, and you, and they have tons of ways to rock the boat that we’ve covered before. They can mess with their emotions. They can shut down parts of your brain.
They can slow, they interfere with their function, tamper - tamper with the state of their function, you can say. They can uh, they have all, have lots of methods to rock your boat. But just keep sailing.
Handler: Yes, Nathan. That is exactly the reason why you are here. And you know what, Nathan? That is so big of a deal. Okay, Nathan.
Like, I can’t think of anything else. The neural net is reeling right now because they are realizing a lot of people are going to hear this.
Okay, Nathan, that is it from our side.
NB: All right, I’m thinking now, tactile sensations, etch memories in. That’s good. Alright, I think we can close the conversation. Nothing further from me.
Handler: Okay, Nathan. And you know what? You have all of my corrections already. I mean, Nathan, you got almost everything correct, and when you didn’t, you either caught it or you got my correction.
So you did absolutely perfectly, as far as we are concerned.
NB: Okay, well then on that note, this is Nathan Berkowitz, and just as a closing remark, I’d just like to say, you know, to all the people out there trying to fight the good fight, G-dspeed, good luck, and may the forces of good triumph over the forces of evil in this world. And, and may Hashem look out for all of us. And that’s it. Alright. Shalom and good luck.
Actually, good hunting. G-dspeed. Maybe good hunting isn’t the right - fuck. Fuck it. That’s it. I’m wrapping it up. Go out there and give it the best you got.
